I fear it just a little, because i feel i have not done all i can to make my life worth it yet. I have saved my cousin from drowning, i have stopped someone from going through with suicide without knowing it just by being there for them.
Yet i still feel there is something i must still do.
I often find myself dreaming of taking a bullet for someone so that i can die as a hero of some sort. This somewhat can be said to go against my idea of "not caring i am remembered after i pass away."

I can not explain it..........

Why do you fear it so much?