Original Fiction: Ancient History

[King_Shadow89]

Emotions


As I sit at this desk, I realize that Heather and I gone out for nine months. I wondered why I feel in love with that girl along time. I hated her for the first five months we were together. I had no feelings for her. The only reason I went out with her was because she had a strong crush on me. After six months, I started to develop these feelings for her. How could this be? I asked myself. Things between us began to get better and we became closer in every way.
Then months later I realized why I developed those feelings for her. I had this whole in my heart what could not be filled, even when I accepted Christ as my lord. The only reason I was still with her is because she claimed to love me. But the truth is I never loved her. (Well except the last two months we were together.)
She was just someone I can hold when I wanted effection. I started to get detached from her. I started had sex with one of my eight-teen year old friend while I was with her. I started to cheat on her for multi reason.
The reasons I cheated on her were many. She was shy all the time until I thought her there is not anything to be shy about. She showed no expression at all when I was with her. Well except in bed but that’s all. She never smiled at all. She always made me feel like it was my fault for everything and that she did not enjoy anything. But the truth was she enjoyed every bit, she just did not know how to express herself. The only time she has ever smiled was when I held her.
I never want to have another relationship like that again and I will never give my heart away again. Why should I? To get hurt again? Well I made a mistake going out with her, but if it was not for her I would be dead so yea. I thank her that much. This was how I felt when I was with Heather.

[demonicgokuman89]

Hay brother whats up! I like your paragraph but why did you not like her in the first place. ( oh lunch time is over see ya home)

[SuXrys]

In a relationship you have to respect each other. If I have to be honest your way of dealing with her makes me sick. If you dont love her -> dont be with her.
Dont lie and DONT start to have sex with someone else while you are together with another person! Its not a fair game ( dont come with lame excuses that she never "smiles",
then just brake up! Poor girl, smiling in your arms..., you never deserved her!).

Apologize to her!

[King_Shadow89]

Hay brother whats up! I like your paragraph but why did you not like her in the first place. ( oh lunch time is over see ya home)

Well little brother, I did like her alot and would do anything for her. I just never loved her. until the last two months. Then she started to go astray and fall out of love. But the last thing she told me was," Thank you for the best nine moths of my life. I love you and take care. But I have to go my own way and you do to. So I am asking you to break up with me because if I break up with you, it will hurt me realy bad."

In a relationship you have to respect each other. If I have to be honest your way of dealing with her makes me sick. If you dont love her -> dont be with her.
Dont lie and DONT start to have sex with someone else while you are together with another person! Its not a fair game ( dont come with lame excuses that she never "smiles",
then just brake up! Poor girl, smiling in your arms..., you never deserved her!).

Apologize to her!

I have nothing to say. I never loved her. I just liked her alot. The only lie I have ever told her was when I was with the other Heather. But I felt bad and told her everything.

[maria89]

it sounds like you need a new girlfriend, a better one. i think you didin't love her of share her feelings that she had about you, that it was a mistake to be with her

[Ari_86]

Im sorry for what has happened to you. But having sex with another while you were with her, might not be the best way to get back at her.At least you told her everything which is good.

[King_Shadow89]

Well I wasn't getting back at her, I was just being bad at that time. I stoped once I fell in love with her. But we went our own ways.She still calls and buggs me to death.

[Daenerys]

Guys... this is a fanfiction thread, not a blog entry. Please respond as such.

Anyway, I'm closing it. Writing about a relationship you have belongs in your journal.