If I had the power to end it all...

**Music Fiend** · 06-28-2006 02:45 PM

I glance over the horizon, looking…

Looking down at the pathetic humans beneath me.

Such sinful creatures,

They have brought so much sadness to my soul,

I should crush them all, from North to South Pole!

My face beams red with anger…

Look at these poor fools.

Willingly sacrificing the lives of their fellow man…

Just so that they can survive another miserable day.

You weak, lying, destructive pests!

All those years that I was needlessly tormented,

Teased for being slightly demented…

Why is it so bad to be different?

Well, it matters not,

I have the power now…

The power to put the human heart at ease,

To crush everything, if I please,

To bring humanity to it’s knees,

I can even make them bow down to me!

This is the right thing to do,

I shall save all of you, by ending your pitiful existence!

I can make this world perfect,

No more wars, poverty, anguish, or chaos.

I refuse to see another soul cry

The only way to truly live is to die.

Haha, yes, corruption is thy name,

I am far beyond just being insane,

I have nothing else to gain…

The only thing that I crave now, is revenge and pain,

So give me more! I want everything!

Open your heart to beautiful oblivion,

Let death be your ultimate salvation,

There is no other way!

Today, I shall end all suffering!

Today, I…I…

“Hey! Chris, wake up! Come outside and play!”

My little cousin is frantically banging on my door.

I let out a silent scream,

“What, it was just a dream?”

“Oh, umm, hold on Mikey, I’ll be out in a sec!”

I think to myself, quietly, as I quickly get dressed.

Is that what I truly want in life?

Power, retribution…everything was in my hands.

I could simply crush those who dare to hurt the ones I love.

Well, As easy as that would be,

It would solve absolutely nothing.

I can’t run away from this…

What would my family say?

There is nothing good about living a lie,

There is an amazing young woman by my side.

I still want to have children…and what of my pride?

I can’t just toss that all aside, on a whim!

Life is full of suffering, hardship, and loneliness,

I know what it feels like to want to die inside,

Tragedy is nothing new to my eyes.

Still, I can’t blame others for my mistakes.

I am who I am today become of the choices I’ve made,

And even though I’ve lived through times of sorrow,

I would be a fool to give up all that I have now.

Sure, I could let everyone drown in his or her own sins,

I could wipe out all of the evil in the world,

However, I would also have to get the innocent involved,

What the hell would that solve?

What did those poor kids do to deserve such punishment?

So many people want to run from their problems…

Run from inevitable wars, poverty…death,

But perseverance is the key to success.

So I will keep fighting to be the best,

What would be the point of life if there were no tests?

No trials to help you reach your goal; that’s no fun!

Truth is, corruption is a hard reality.

Racism can never be completely eradicated,

Hatred constantly drifts around us,

No one is immune to its infectious dust.

But that’s still no reason to stop fighting!

So, I won’t…I will continue to fight,

For the love of my life,

For the future generations,

Suicide…ending it all would be so easy,

Heh, but I’ve always liked a good challenge.

For your sake, it’s a good thing that was just a dream…

It was just a nightmare, nothing more than a false scare.

You know, life was never intended to be fair,

But I’d rather be alive than dead, lying in a dank coffin,

Looking to the sky, with a hauntingly blank stare.

Perfection is an illusion; one that forever remains alluring.

Yet, even so, the tears of the damned shall never stop pouring.

So, live on, my friends,

I don’t have the will to end it all.

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Notes:

I sometimes ask myself, what would you do if you were a god with infinite power. Of course, I’d get a whole bunch of awesome stuff for myself…and I’d toss in a few good deeds, so I don’t look a total butthead. However, deeper questions came to my mind, soon after: “What would you do if had the power to decide the fate of humanity? Would you be willing to obliterate all life on this planet, in order to rid the world of its sin and to get revenge on all of those who did you wrong, or would you entrust humans with their own fates?” I know, that’s a lot of thinking to do, but hey, its summer. Anyway, as someone who has been through his fair share of ups and downs, but has also found considerable happiness in life, I found it rather difficult to answer to myself, at first, but I developed my thoughts as I was writing. If you are a big fan of the video game, Final Fantasy X, and I know there are tons of FF fanboys and girls on this site, then you will see that I took on the mind-set of Seymour Guado. Besides being a frustratingly annoying freak, he also has the belief that the only way to save Spira, is by bringing death to everyone, thus releasing him or her from the pain of discrimination, abuse, and loneliness; all things that Seymour, himself, has experience. Mixing Seymour’s ideas with my own, somewhat cynical, thoughts, I decided to explore that way of thinking, which got me to think of some surprisingly dark scenarios. Having my cousin break up such a terrible dream was a way to express that even though I am a Realist at heart, life doesn’t always have to be about death and gloom. There is nothing wrong with wanting to be loved and held; something that Seymour never realized.

I know I don’t typically write stuff like this, but I know that people get tired of hearing about rainbows, sunshine, angels, and love, in poems. Well, I know I do, at least. Ugh, I’ve spent enough time babbling.

So, love it or hate it, that’s my poem. It’s certainly not the best thing that I’ve written, but I can now say, at the very least, that I am able to switch up my poetic style.