I look at myself in mirrors or at my reflection in windows and stuff quite often just because I like seeing how I look at different times, especially in crowded places. I look odd so I really love looking at my reflection when I'm around a lot of people to see the contrast. I honestly couldn't say why. It's just fun. I've also been trying to catch myself to see if I really have inherited my aunt's strut like my mom told me I have. O.O
I have had to learn to try not to judge myself when I see my reflection because I have extremely low self-esteem. I hate myself more than I care to say, especially my looks, but it doesn't make a difference if someone is in the room with me or not because I genuinely don't care what others think. I just don't like myself. I can sometimes see a pretty girl if I look in the mirror with a quick glance, but any longer than that and it warps.
Wow that sounded so emo. O.O
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