What I want most is...

[Cobra Commander]

This is where I say "money and power". True, I want those things. Sometimes, life just feels empty. Along the road on my never ending quest for money and power, I'd like to stop periodically and find some love and home.

Some people say that home is where you hang your hat, lay your head, or where your heart is. My hat is on the dashboard. I can sleep pretty much anywhere. And my heart? Well...I don't know where it is. I lost it some time ago, and haven't found it yet. It's not in New York. It's not in California. And it's not in Texas - though this is the best of the three by far. I just don't feel like I belong here.

Love is a series of chemical reactions, and is generally one sided or a lie. When you do find it, it's fleeting and reaches escape velocity quickly. It is probably running from you and your dysfunctional personality. [for those that don't get it, the "you" in this is actually me]

Love requires a mutual attraction, understanding, and respect. And probably a few other things, but I don't care to go in depth. Lets just say that those three things are pretty difficult to find in one location.

I can look at a girl I meet somewhere, and be attracted to her, but behind that lovely face usually lies a brick wall that I simply cannot navigate around or penetrate. And I've never been very good at opening up to people in the first place. And if I can't get past that obstacle, then there is no connection, no attraction, simply a passing fancy. Meanwhile, there are others that probably have short walls that I could simply vault over, but in their cases, I'd often rather be eaten by zombies than try. You get my drift. You probably have similar issues.

Meanwhile, money comes from hard work, and power comes from ruthlessness and internal resolve. I think. Maybe corruption factors in there somewhere too. Connections, definitely. I haven't got any of those.

And then there's the problem - too much money is never enough. The second problem is the definition of power. Does it mean strength, resolve, authority? I desire strength. I possess resolve. And I could care less about authority. What I want is the power to determine my own fate, and to destroy those who stand in my way. That's power, and in the times we live in now, that's a damned pipe dream.


What do you want most?

[niKopol]

I sadly desire nothing when I get past those chemical reactions of love. Without I have no desire for self-improvement, gain, nor care for the future.

And those feelings of not belonging, eventually you'll stop caring or ignore it.

[Cobra Commander]

Not belonging here has something to do with being a yankee....and not wearing a cowboy hat, boots, or driving a jacked up pickup.
I actually want to buy a truck, but you'll never in a million years catch me in a cowboy hat.

I'm always working, and still crashing at the family's place here, though that's about to change. I think I found a place I can afford this month, so I'm going to go for it. I don't go out, and haven't made any friends. I don't work with people who have anything in common with me, and they're all married with kids or much older.

I agree with what you said, though, if I understood it correctly. The hope of finding that right person is as much a motivator as more money is. Self improvement, etc. leads there. At least...I hope it does.

[RaShayRitto]

eh i try not to get too caught up on wanting stuff. I just want peace and relaxation more than anything. If i have those then everything else will follow quite naturally....or so i tell myself XD

[.Kuro]

It's a pretty deep thread you wrote here. From my personal experience, I can tell you that about 9 months ago I was just a ship in the middle of the ocean, with no clear destination, navigating into uncertainty. A life without purpose is not a life (I'd dare say not worth living). I believe in destiny: I don't believe in looking for a right person; I believe that the right person will come to me. And I eventually stumbled on a 23 year old woman and she is the reason that I crossed the world in order to become a man (I'm always described as a childish person). That feeling is my fuel for life and that's the only thing that I truly desire...but that feeling can't exist without money or power.

[niKopol]

Not belonging here has something to do with being a yankee....and not wearing a cowboy hat, boots, or driving a jacked up pickup.
I actually want to buy a truck, but you'll never in a million years catch me in a cowboy hat.

You'll never see me wearing boots or a cowboy hat. The only times I actually care for pick ups is when I'm sitting by my car cursing that I have no room for such and such.

I'm always working, and still crashing at the family's place here, though that's about to change. I think I found a place I can afford this month, so I'm going to go for it. I don't go out, and haven't made any friends. I don't work with people who have anything in common with me, and they're all married with kids or much older.

I usually have no desire to be around people in general. For me to choose to hang out with anyone requires either A. Me drinking or B. They're special.

I agree with what you said, though, if I understood it correctly. The hope of finding that right person is as much a motivator as more money is. Self improvement, etc. leads there. At least...I hope it does.

I don't seek out people much less hope for anything. 99.9% of the time I'm not looking nor have a reason too. Its one of those never try, never fail situations in my book. No matter how much I enjoy it, I hate being in love because the best things about me are lost when thoughts of lovey dovey fill my mind.

Like I said without love there is no desire. I never feel the need nor want for anything. Which probably is scary to some people.

[DOOM!]

What I want most is... TL;DR

[Cobra Commander]

TLR? YOu must not have seen the epic political posts I make....

It's nice to see that I got people responding though. This place has been dead today.

[DOOM!]

Matter of fact, I scrolled over them so I wouldn't have to read them. But the whole thread was full of TLs, so I just closed the broswer.

[Cobra Commander]

owned by the red X, huh?

[DOOM!]

It Red allright, it position up there is very ergonomic, and if you don't slip a click up there, you feel a certain urge.

[Cobra Commander]

I even hit it by accident sometimes when I want to expand or contract the window. Sometimes that's infuriating.

[SigmaSD]

What I want most is to have the power to materialize anything. If I'm hungry, I could just materialize food, or if I need to sleep, I can materialize a bed. How awesome would that be?

[.:oh_not_her:.]

I want my brother to leave me and my drawings alone. All he does is critisize them and take the mick. Grrr i wish he would just leave me alone. But that would take a miracle! Hes only 10 and he already intimidates me! Lol! I sound soo pathetic. The stupid chav

[lilminx]

the thing i want most is freedom. be able to do what you want when you want.be able to fly, like no physics or whatever

[miniPhil]

The thing I want most is more time in a day. Too much to do, too busy browsing AF to do it.

[Baka]

I want to go on a never ending date with Kipi!!!

[RaShayRitto]

I want to go on a never ending date with Kipi!!!

oh man you and me both, bro! ^_^

[Gjallarhorn]

Wealth, power, happiness, a castle with a moat, and senility.

[Alphabet]

I found love, and I've been dousing(and maybe drowning) myself in it.

I want to find my happy place. Bring that happiness everywhere so I don't have to fake a smile. I'm only happy when my boyfriend is around, and that's it. I don't want it once a day, I want it alll day.
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[Aizen-sama]

is for all humans to go away and leave me to live with this planet and all of nature

[Skylar1]

It's best not to want, but to be happy with what you have.

And if there is something you really want; only actions can produce results.

[Akihiko_88]

i want to to everybody don't get what they asked

[Bulma1017]

I really want all of my family and my friends who I love and care for, to live healthy, happy, and eventful live's, to catch thier dream's and wishes that THEY would want.

and for me I love to see and put a smile on people's faces! nothing more relaxing to me, to know I made someone else day a good day! So everyone smile, be happy, it's a brand new day of wakening!

[Alphabet]

i want to to everybody don't get what they asked

Aww, so you're going to deprive me of happiness? That's all I ask for. . .and elote. . .and baked potatoes with fattening toppings.
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