Location: An Apartment Somewhere
I woke up screaming again.
But there's nothing new in that. I've become my own personal alarm clock, the sound of my own screams usually enough to jar me awake. No, of course there's nothing wrong with that.
I'm in an unknown place.
Again, nothing new there. There have been many unknown places that I've been to because... well I'm thinking it's because of Sean's desire to roam around when I'm asleep. Sean has been restless recently. This is nothing new.
I'm in pain.
Ah, and that's something new. The screams, the nightmares and the unknown places are the regulars in my life, but the pain. The pain is new. The pain came from a nightmare, where I felt I was being sucked into a wormhole or black-hole that would giggle menacingly like a woman. Parts of me went in, wounds opened and blood flowed. When I woke up, the body is unharmed, but the pain is there. The pain is real.
So I don't stop screaming.
Not for a while.
I can feel her pain, but not really.
I can feel in a sense that I know that she's in pain, but I'm not feeling the actual pain. It's only a dull sensation on my end. I know why it's like this. The fight with... it made me realize something I didn't know before. I know who I am, better yet I know what I am.
No wonder I treat life as a joke.
I'm the biggest joke there ever was.
SECRET SOMEONE'S POV
I want to hug her, to make the pain stop.
But I can't.
I want to punch him and break his face for using her like this.
And still I can't.
Don't worry though, I'll be able to do it soon. Oh soon enough, everything will be clear and real and crisp. I've been away for far too long.
Far too long.