Such a hotheaded topic. I was sitting in the kitchen with my mother around midnight and we were talking about my views and opinions on life. Personally I think life sucks, well most people think that too. But I have reasons to back it up, i think life sucks because as soon as you get close to someone they are gone. So many people in my life have either just rejected me and left OR died. I lived a very sheltered life I was never out I didn't know how hard and horrible life was until I was 13. Growing up with just my mum and no dad, he died before I was born. I never go out anymore because I've given up on humanity. If I try to walk into a store I get stared at by the desk clerk or the cashier or whatever. And they follow me through the store making sure I don't steal anything. They get the impression that I'm gonna steal something because they pinned the teen stereotype on me, the stereotype being; "I'm a troublemaker, I steal, i smoke I drink" Society made up that stereotype after seeing one maybe two teenagers like that. It angers me how people can be so pathetic and ignorant. And when you try to explain it to them they just say your being rebellious, It may be true but they are just trying to cover up what they don't understand. And I quote "People will never know anything beyond what they see with their own two eyes" - Nightcrawler.
So I've given up on humanity and I've lost faith in mankind. But not just for that reason. Other reasons being that when people don't understand something they think it's a bad thing. Like if you've seen the movie pleasantville. When colour hit the black and white world the townsfolk thought it was a bad thing just because it's different and try to get rid of it.
On the topic of not understanding things and thinking they are bad, how do you think gay people feel? Some of them are afraid to open up to the public because some people just choose not to accept it and see it as a bad thing, this is where homophobia started (Being afraid of what is different, in this case gay people being different somehow) I don't think gay people are that much different, so what if they like someone of the same gender, it seems most guys don't have a problem with lesbians, lesbians are just gay women. But when it comes to gay men, straight guys think its a problem because they don't understand it. And if you try to help them understand they just shove it back in your face because they don't want to accept it.
Those are just some of the reasons why I've given up on humanity, the last reason is because some people are just so inhumane its scary, "why can't you accept us for who we are?" - "Because your different". "Well your different from me and I don't try to get rid of you".
All this me and my mum talked about, she didn't know I had this running through my mind for the past 3 years, I'm 16 now and shes shocked about my negative views on life. Looks like I will have to go to therapy. But when I go I will just tell them what I told my mum and ask them why I would be put in counselling for having those opinions and thoughts.
I'm done for now before I start to ramble.