Why...My Dream

[otakuyume]

April 7th, 2:43pm, 2006.

Why...My Dream.



Why....? Why did it have to come to this?

I've lost my will, the beating of my heart I do not miss...

I've lost it all...

That simple warm feeling that was so enormous...Yet so simply small.

That feeling we call hopes and dreams...Where are they now?

Please tell me...Before I'm left to die in reality in this unforgiving plow.

I'm drowing in that vilness, that killer of dreams...

That devestating blow and pain-staking slap that reality of "as it only seems".

I'm falling...

Falling so hard and fast.

I curse myself for my foolish past.

Why couldn't that beautiful innocent childhood dream last?

Why...? Why did it have to come to this?

I've lost my will, the beating of my heart I do not miss...

I've lost it all...

That simple warm feeling that was so enormous...Yet so simply small.

I'm lost...Dying...Broken...And yet...


I will live.

[Yamanaka_Ino]

I luv it! It's so dark and dreary.

[Evangeline]

^ I agree! I like that poem.

Loss and dying dreams... I love it! my favorite kind, awesome job!

[Blue X]

I like that poem, it's so emotional, I hope to see more of your writing. I also liked that other poem, But it got closed before i could say it was a good one. ^_^

[otakuyume]

*Edit: Ooops! I posted the same poem twice sorri! -.-;;;*
Kya! Thank-you for much for the kind words! I've got another poem here so enjoy:


April 7th, 2:49pm, 2006.

Understand?


I cannot understand...

What is it that you see?

What is it that you want from me?

I cried my tears, hidden my sorrow...

Will you let me see that small light of tommorrow?

I cannot understand...

Why do you look at this ruined shell?

Can't you see these tear-striken eyes as well?

Don't look at me.

Don't say one word.


Just leave me be in my own little world.

I cannot understand...

Why did it have to come to this?

Why was this vital opportunity one I had to miss?


You gaze at me with such pity...

"Oh you poor thing..." arises from your lips like a siren in a city.

Just stop.

Let me fade away.


No comfort can compare on this miserable day.


I will forever see in the grey...


Because I don't understand why things had to be this way.

[Evangeline]

Ooo, another good poem! I love it.
I really like your writings, you are really good!
You're becoming one of my favorites ^^
Can't wait to see some more.

[otakuyume]

Kyaaaaaaaaaa! Thank-you so much! Here's one more:

April 10th, 7:09 pm.

See These Eyes...?

See these eyes...?

Watch to wittness their silent cries.

Tears are not only of what they shall shed.

They contain the suffering...The pain...Cursed by how I was misled.

See these tears?

They are flowing of your lies and your newly inflicted fears.

Embedded into my soul, you've broken my heart, my trust.

From these white scars you gave me and bloody healing cuts that look like rust.

See this trembling soul?

It is beyond turning back, it has taken it's toll.

How could you be so cruel?

Why was it I was such a fool?

Answer me!

Can you see these eyes...?

They're tired of crying for you.

[Evangeline]

omg! your poems rock!!!
I absolutely love your poems!
I so look forward to reading your stuff ^^
You are freakin' good! >.<

[otakuyume]

My super-special poem for my birthday! Enjoy everyone! It's very sentimental and gives a true look into my entire being and nature. I am enigma but even engmias are mysteries to themselves to try to unravel.

April 11th 10:33 pm

Wandering

Wandering...So far and long lost, but not entirely faded.

Seas of blue and the meadow's green grasses in which innocence is not jaded.

My eyes...As green as those grasses.

They could never blend in with this world's populous masses.

I am unique, so entirely beyond this relem.

I draw a sword of soul and battle reality's helem.

Wandering...So far and long lost, but not entirely faded.

Seas of blue and the meadow's green grasses in which innocence is not jaded.

There is nothing more to be seen and yet so much more I have not.

Love is only the battle I have not won, for it is one I have not fought.

Come, whisper to me sweet nothings and somethings into this lonely ear.

Tell me you love me, it is the one thing I so much desire to hear.

Wandering...So far and long lost, but not entirely faded.

Seas of blue and the meadow's green grasses in which innocence is not jaded.

Hold me close and never let me go.

Because if you do I'll never let anyone take us, not even if death is our foe.

I shall love forever because it isn't possibly for a heart to truly forget.

I shall always treasue each second, especially how we first met.

Wandering...So far and long lost, but not entirely faded.

Seas of blue and the meadow's green grasses in which innocence is not jaded.

I may live in a world within the one that you see...

But I can promise you my love will always be.

I'll never stop wandering, never slowing because life is so fast...

But even if you leave me...

My love is a love that will always...Always last.

[*Darla's_Curiousity*]

I luv it! It's so dark and dreary.

Totally agree! Oh and word of advise your suposed to post new poems on new threads....I think

[otakuyume]

April 12, 2:58 pm, 2006

This Distance

This distance...

So far a part and yet so close I can barely reach...

I stand upon these sandy shores telling my heart things it refuses me teach.

This distance...

So far away, yet not at all.

If I were to stumble would you catch me as I fall?

This distance...

Why is it so utterly filled with darkness and pain?

I refuse to move from this shore, even while I'm assaulted by the pouring rain.

This distance...

It matters not if I can be with you.

Some people call me foolish, prehaps they are true.

This distance...

I'll conquer it to see you once more.

I can see you so clearly even from this sandy shore.

This distance...

It matters not.

Because our promise is not one so easily forgot.

This distance...

Doesn't know what I'll love you forever means.

[{Good}{Bye}]

WOW their all really good poems! Your a good poet!

[otakuyume]

*Dedicated to my lovely Kaikou-chan! I wanted to take some time to make a special poem just for you! (I feel bad not posting it sooner T.T)*

Apirl 18th, 2006, 8:51 pm

The Very Start

My love...The only one in my heart...
Do you remember the beginning...The very start?

I listen to your sweet, sweet words...

They dance and sing like beautiful birds.

I dream of gazing into your eyes...

Not wondering or caring what dangers may lie.

My love...The only one in my heart...
Do you remember the beginning...The very start?

A fleeting smile...

I asked you to stay awhile.

You honored my simple request...

Even though we hardly knew best.

My love...The only one in my heart...
Do you remember the beginning...The very start?

You made me blush and I returned the favor...

Those tender moments...Oh, how I do savor.

I wanted to make you laugh and look at me only so...

I didn't even realize things were turning...How would I know?

My love...The only one in my heart...
Do you remember the beginning...The very start?

You made me worry as we parted...

I edgarly ran back to the place we met...Where it all started.

However you weren't there when I was and I returned so many times...

I thought you had left me, as if I had committed to you unspeakable crimes.

My love...The only one in my heart...
Do you remember the beginning...The very start?

Then we found each other once again by chance of fate...

We learned that it was all a misunderstanding, just before it was too late.

Now I hold you close in my simple honest heart and soul...

Preparing to bear any and all of our burderns, regardless of the toll.

My love...The only one in my heart...
Do you remember the beginning...The very start?

We were both so very foolish...In this tiny blossoming we sought...

But the ironic thing we both now see...

...Is what love today is not?

[Kaikou]

Wow. That's so very beautiful otaku. *tear* ;.; and you wrote it for me. Oh my. I'm so speechless right now...what am I supposed to say? I don't know.

Thank you!

*Huggles*

[otakuyume]

April 20. 2006, 4:37 pm

Vague Yume

Vague Yume...
Ominous dreams of yesterday.

Welcome to my world of wonder...

Where nothing is and everything is, as rapid and commanding as thunder.

A world where this one cannot hold me with it's chains of reality.

I shall not sumbit myself or you to such normality.

Vague Yume...
Ominous dreams of yesterday.

Can you see the cherryblossoms in my hair?

Behind my golden locks that dare not hide my fleeting stare?

Welcome, please let me take your hand...

So that I help you to understand.

Vague Yume...
Ominous dreams of yesterday.

There's only one thing you need to know...

In this world of mine that I wish to show...

If you wish to stay alongside me forever...Or maybe even just for today...

*Dreams are Precious...Don't let them fade away*

[Evangeline]

Wow, you're good. Your poems are awesome!
They flow so nice, they're just beautiful!
I really like that last one ^^ Wonderful job!

[otakuyume]

April 22, 2006 10:23pm

Torn

This unbearble pain that sears me inside...

It tortures me so, leaving no place for me to hide.

I don't know anymore what to do...

Because I am so torn without you.

Torn, battered and broken...

Unable to speak the words I had once so lovingly had spoken.

I wander, lost and afraid...

Drowning inside myself, how much more this must be paid?

Erase me.

Fade me away so that no one can see.

Torn, battered and broken...

Unable to speak the words I had once so lovingly had spoken.

I don't wanna be another victim of those headlines...

Free me of these restraining poisonous binds.

Let me take your hand...

Take me away to whatever land...

Just don't let me go.

Torn, battered and broken...

Unable to speak the words I had once so lovingly had spoken.

Just hold me close.

Torn, battered and broken...

Unable to speak the words I had once so lovingly had spoken.

Let me say...I love you

[lorie]

Wow you have a lot of poems. They are really good. And very emotional. Nice work!! Keep it up!

[Princely Dreaming Doll]

I like your poems. They are very interesting indeed. I really find them a drag and deary and boring my favorite.
But I guess a little moe emotional than what I like.
But its good your poems are wonderful. Hope you take one being an author when you grow up.

[otakuyume]

*That last one was actually a song-poem. I wrote it a while back when I was having troubles in my life. (I still do, but who doesn't?)*
Lol. I'm already published in some little books but not self-authored. I would like to be a manga artist through Tokyopop or start my own studio. If not, I'll settle for being an animation artist and do my books in my own time.
Here's another one *song-poem* for all you faithful readers:

April 22, 2006, 2:49 pm

So Long

Hello...

Can you hear me?

Can you feel this voice...

A voice you cannot see....?

Hello...

This is your soul.

It's been so very long since we have last met.
Did you forget about your dreams that we set?
Where did we go wrong?
It's been so long...

Why...?

You lay there...

So void, sullen and it's more than I can bear.

You can't tell me any lies...

Why...?

I see those tears flowing from your eyes..

It's been so very long since we have last met.
Did you forget about your dreams that we set?
Where did we go wrong?
It's been so long...

Please...

Don't let me fade away...

I can't bear you see you this way.

I'm begging you to get up and take one more try...

Please....

I know is living is hard so please don't cry.

Please don't let me die...

It's been so very long since we have last met.
Did you forget about your dreams that we set?
Where did we go wrong?
It's been so long...

My friend...

Don't say this is the end...

Wounds are meant to mend...

Why are you letting me go?

My friend...Why?
Hello...
This is your soul...
Please...Don't let me die...

[Demonic Ice Dragon]

Otaku! I like them, But you're not suppose to post all of them in the same thred. It's suppose to be seperate threads for each poem hun =3

[Yamanaka_Ino]

Oh my god. They are all so good. You have so many, don't you? Or are you just typing them up as you think of them? They are all so very good, keep up the awesome jobs!!

[otakuyume]

Well...All the ones but song-poems are typed as I sit at the computer. I rather make fresh and new ideas in a sitting rather than submit my boring old stuff. Lol. ...Anyway I wanted a collection thread of my stuff so I hope I'm not bothering our almighty moderator by posting more than one. *Cowers in fear*

Here's a new song-poem folks!

April 22, 2006, 10:37 pm

Please Tell Me

Please tell me...
I can't figure it out...
All these questions making me want to shout...
I hear your voice...
I see your face...
So hauntingly beautiful I'm frozen in place.
Can you tell me...
What am I living for...?
Why am I damned to stay locked behind this bedroom door...?
I cannot escape this binding flesh...
Torturing myself with memories that will not mesh...

What am I doing in this place?
What am I doing in this place?
Why does reality have to bring us all down?
Why are we living in a world that our minds cannot wrap around?
Please tell me...

I've forgotten what it was like to be a child...
Those simple innocent days under a summer sun so gentle and mild...
I slam my fist into the wall, cursing myself for letting it slip by so fast...
I scream with these tears, wondering why it couldn't last...
Shivering and broken, just like shattered fragile glass...
I shakingly reach out, only to be crushed once more by reality's mass...
This bloodied fingers claw out, eyes void of living, I let out a cry...
Please tell me the answers don't give me a lie...
I'll do anything you say if my dreams are returned and I am satisfied...
If I only gain more pain at least I've tried...

What am I doing in this place?
What am I doing in this place?
Why does reality have to bring us all down?
Why are we living in a world that our minds cannot wrap around?
Please tell me...

Please tell me...
Please tell me...!!

I just want...To be free.

[bafflequeen]

wow! all of your poems are awesome. i enjoy reading them.
awesome job! hope to read more.

[Daenerys]

Read the rules, you cannot spam your own thread.