JESUS CHRIST PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!
So I moved to Japan to study Japanese for a year. Currently attending a language school in central Tokyo. Of course, I'm placed in a way too difficult class for some reason, and I end up embarrassing myself over and over again for about a week before finally switching to an easier class. However IT WAS ****ING WORTH IT.
Because of HER. Jesus Christ, HER. She was my conversation partner during one exercise in class, and I was completely blown out of my mind. She has got to be the cutest damn thing in the universe! I didn't really want to switch class, but I just couldn't keep up and would just have ended up repeating the class and wasting 3 months. And there it was.
「いっしょに べんきょうしたい です。。。」
Jesus H. Christ. She said that TO ME. So I somehow managed to get her Skype name and we chat a few times a week, usually in the evening. I also meet her at school during breaks sometimes. But GOD, she is so... GNNNNjakshdkajsgdlakshdl!!!!!!!!! I don't know what to do!!! There are so many problems with EVERYTHING!
I'm a huge frelling nerd. I'm a hobby GAME PROGRAMMER goddamn it. I've watched more anime than I can remember. I've played numerous H-games. Heck, I LOOK like a ****ing otaku; glasses, skinny as hell, not really good looks..... 50% of my Japanese is from animes. Somewhat fortunately she is also interested in anime at least. I've watched every anime she's even mentioned within a day or two.
It feels like she keeps on teasing me. Remember the thread title? When we chat on Skype, she keeps on saying... interesting things. When I told her about my non-existent sleep habits, she called me a vampire and then asked me to bite her. Then she said she was going to shower and logged out, leaving me completely dead with those mental images. She's been saying things like this for almost a month now!
She has a boyfriend. Yes, no kidding. God, I've heard stories about them on the bus to Mount Fuji (I was on another bus, because I switched classes, thank God?). Should I still confess if I managed to gather the courage to do so? She would obviously turn me down, and in the worst case feel guilty for me. I definitely don't want that. Should I just stay quiet and "hope" they split up? I already feel like a hypocrite. I basically wish for her to be hurt as I don't think she would be unhurt by a breakup. And making a move too soon seems like a damn bad idea. I haven't even had the willpower to actually see how close they are...
It's summer holiday right now, and I've been asked to come with her and her friends (and almost certainly her boyfriend) to an amusement park (Fuji-Q). How should I interpret that?! That she's interested in me or just see me as a "no threat" friend? It just seems so... early? I don't meet her that often, but she still invited me to something like that... So confused...
What the hell do I do? Keeping up this wonderful/painful waiting or try to do something?