The beginning of the end

It's just getting started,
I just lost something precious,
and it will continue,
until I have no one left,
even my family will begin,
to hate and leave me,
just as thought,
I won't have a bright future,
my life was short,
why just end things now,
I'm not going to be,
important to everyone,
I was being used this time,
and I didn't realize it,
until now,
if I don't die soon,
things will only get worse,
and it's because it's my fault,
I destroyed myself,
completely ruined my heart,
lookl how rotten it is,
from all that pain and sorrow,
from all that hatred,
it was hopeless,
who ever thought,
that I was pathetic afterall....
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