Jenny14
Junior Member

Well, thanks. Um, anything changed since we last talked about a week ago?

Well, that's fine, I guess, It won't be terrible. Until he gets deployed, then there's risk of PTSD or Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy, or C.T.E.
Anyway, That's a pretty small risk. I wish him the best of luck, there's no need to apologize for me, I'm getting better. It's more self-hate than anything.

You have a one year old? I'm 22, Single, and have to take care of my orphan little brother...
Sorry if I'm butting in here, but it's real sad that you're boyfriend wishes to join the army. I did, way back when, and now I take anti-depressants and I have PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder.) Visions of horror haunt me in my dreams, and I tend to wake up screaming. I know I can't make him reconsider, but I feel pretty terrible to know that someone else is gonna jump on the bandwagon and possibly end up like me. I'm probably like the 1% of veterans where that occurs, but send him my regards, if possible/if you want. Sorry if I made it any worse for you, it didn't sound like it was in a very good position from the start.

I'm so sorry to hear that. Especially the part about you crying. I hope your bf makes up for it. I feel we'll always make the people we love cry but what makes a real man is someone that can bring a smile on his girl's face and clear her head of any doubts. Well that would really be nice. Anyway, he sounds a lot like that stupid girl i dated -_-. When we were dating, to her i was her life....her everything. We were so close. But than later i couldn't tell u how many times i heard "oh you aren't my life" or "oh i'ts not ok to say i'm your everything" and all kinds of stuff. It's stupid. Makes me sick thinking about it. I think he is immature to be saying those things and more of a boy that just wants fun than a man that wants to shape his life with someone. Sorry if i'm being harsh here. I'm a little edgy since i've heard that so many times from that girl. You are right though to make those things your life. It's admirable. I hope your friends and sister keep supporting you.

Oh, I'm doing pretty well, got a new job. Happy New Year! You still in school, college, or are you of working age?

An hour away isn't bad at all. It's almost like nothing. But i think the biggest thing isn't so much how often he comes to visit, but how that time goes when he is there. It shouldn't be well i'm here now what. I like how you think logically, but i guess u must have went through a lot to think that way so maybe it's also sad. But you're right, a nice gift is nice but the feelings behind it make it special. If it's getting a romantic gift for the sake of saying u did then not much there. Anyway, sometimes thinking to much sucks. I think you should just be careful and take time trusting completely before moving too much. Haha that's funny, just how much laundry could there be. It would have to be a years worth lol. I guess i'd be speechless thinking should i be mad cause of the horrible excuse or the not coming over part. I hope you had a good evening regardless with your daughter. Happy new year ^^ i hope this year works out for both u and me >_> lol.

Hello, How you doing?

Haha well a lot of guys and girls are like that. People now-a-days date casually than out of love. It's not something serious to most. I really do not like that since to me being with someone means love, commitment, sharing your life, being responsible for their life, and so on. Haha i know exactly how u feel. I'd drive 250 miles just to see her and solve problems at a moments notice and september i even -_-; spent $1200+ and flew there cause she wanted to "see" me. Love is really blind. At that time the person seems worth so much, but then u see how foolish u were. Yeah that must take away a lot of career chances u have. Well hang in there. Hard work is always rewarded somehow. Haha I dont want kids until maybe 10 years from now lol.

Wow i can image o_o It must be so hard everyday. I'm sure she will really appreciate everything you do for her when she's older ^^. I know what you mean, when u say everyone falls for anyone these days. I really don't that. I feel i understand since this girl i dated for 2.5+ years and we always talked about getting married. I thought for sure it would work but then she changed and -_-; then dated another guy for 6 months in secret. I did some ridiculous things for her. So that ended up being a mistake. So yep i don't want to rush ^^ i made one mistake, i don't want to do the same again. Haha i actually like Pennsylvania, it is A LOT better than Connecticut where i am right now ^^. And >.>; yes Pennsylvania >>>>> Kentucky T_T; lol. That sounds tough though. Regardless of any state, just move like that. I really hope that goes well. I went to college for well -_-; i got two degrees. One's premedicine (which is currently useless >_>; ) and the other in electrical engineering.

OMG really!!!! That must be so much responsibility. I'm 25 T_T; and the idea of having kids is farrrr from my mind lol. Though the idea of finding and being with soulmate is something i've always chanced after ^^. Hahahaha the beach in october T_T; i bet it was. You're from pennsylvania right. I went to penn state ^^; so i've lived in state college, PA for 4 years. It was really fun regardless of it being in the middle of no where lol.