::SomeOtherCookiez::
Senior Member

so you must be on the tail end of your school career? i don't know how it works in AU, but here you'd be a senior. so at least it's almost over... until you go to college. i lost my faith in humanity and all interest in knowing others when i was 16, when i got cancer and none of my "friends" came to visit me. but i slowly rebuilt it and now i have friends again and i don't see people as braindead anymore, i see them as people just like me, imperfect and pathetic. all of us are. we fucking try so hard to make sense of life and all it takes is one event that another might see as insignificant to ruin our lives.

i don't know why i go off on these depressing fucking tangents all the time! man i really am a downer! ignore all my bullshit, life is peachy and people are good. really!

man do i ever relate to that. i fucking HATED everyone in my school (well almost everyone, had a couple friends). i thought they were all braindead zombies, just acting out the roles that their social cliques assigned them.

how old are you?

so what are your problems involving life

i actually get more responses saying goofy bullshit than starting like "hey, i read your profile and derpaderpaderp". but really i'm about to call it quits. rejection doesn't surprise me anymore, i expect it, but it still makes me feel like shit every time. i don't think i should put myself through it anymore. i'm thinking i'm one of those people that, despite their efforts, are meant to be alone. see what i mean about being depressing? dude i can't even help it i'm just a fucking extremely melancholic person. and chicks don't dig that. they want an energetic, fun dude and i used to be like that but not anymore.

but yeah. sorry to vent on you. whenever i have a lot of time to think, i start thinking about all my failures in life.

none of that was meant as a joke. being alone causes me a lot of heartache and frustration. but i guess this isn't the sort of thing i should just randomly blab about... i just have no one else to tell.

i'm self-deprecating when i describe myself, if i'm being serious. i call myself a boring loner basically.

yeah i've tried being honest, tried typing shit like that, i am unacceptable to women no matter how i approach them. i've had two call me a downer and say i'm depressing. i don't know how else to be i can't pretend i'm happy.

bored at work. blah.

heya, i'm Tony and i own all of the lava on earth. when i'm in a bad mood i send it cascading into villages and towns, killing hundreds of thousands to satisfy my cyberlust. also when i volcano erupts anywhere on earth i have an orgasm.

this is a typical message i send to women on dating sites. i wonder why i'm still alone.

welp i'm at work and need someone to talk to on my breaks. how long are you gonna be on?

i honestly read that as 'my "business woman"'
and was like whaaa. stupid dyslexia. anyway that sounds kinda scary, i hope everything turns out okay.

what was the reason you got checked in the first place? i mean what made you worried that you'd see a doctor three times?